Who Do You Want To Be?

In Narcissa Balenciaga, Promo by Narcissa Balenciaga

I wanted to be a mystery, an enigma, the question that forces people to look within.

Zeus acted like he had all the answers for society as a whole, I wanted to give the people the questions he cannot possibly answer.

I wanted to inspire change through skepticism, growth through confusion, solidarity through outrage, and I wanted to make an uprising for the downtrodden.

The mystery of my identity is gone, I am no longer an enigma to the world. I’m a woman with two names, Narcissa Balenciaga and Hera. Just like my identities are split, so is public opinion of me.

At once, I’m loved and hated. No one cares about any piece of fashion I’ve created. In their eyes, the only things I’ve designed are chaos or justice.

I’ve wanted to be multiple things in my life but those are all gone.

I wanted to be a child.

I wanted to be an artist.

I wanted to be a loving wife.

I wanted to be a mother.

I wanted to be an agent of change.

I wanted to be a mystery.

I wanted to be the reason people had hope.

I wanted to be more that what I was destined to be.

I became all those things and most of them I have lost.

I wanted the world to be my audience and now I’m behind bars with an audience of one, Jackson Cade.

The world can see I’m not who I want to be right now but I’ll ask the question you still haven’t answered, who do you want to be?

Do you really want to keep wearing that badge?

Do you really want to keep being an eagle?

Do you really want to only be seen as his way to punish people?

I know you don’t, you’re better than that Cade.

I can see it, why can’t you?

Why can’t you say what you want to be?

You want the same thing I do, you want to be an instrument of good.

You can’t say it because uttering those words is an admission that you’re not that right now.

That truth breaks you and keeps you quiet.

I know that so I’ll speak for you right now.

You wanted to be able to do things the right way.

You wanted to be a protector.

You wanted to be a fighter for good.

You wanted to be an arbiter of hope.

You wanted to be the best this system allowed you to be.

He took those things from you too, Cade.

Now all you are is an officer for a system you don’t believe in anymore.

You wanted to be there for everyone, at this moment you feel like you’re only here for me.

We both still have the chance to be what we truly want to be.

Just let me get out of these bars and I’ll help you be the good you want to be as long as you allow me to be the change I want to be.

I’ll ask it one last time.

Who do you want to be?

It’s time to answer with actions not words.